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Trying to break out of laziness :p

Yup, sheer laziness  on my part for not posting the soo many exciting stuff happening in our family.  What with self going on path of  self discovery and still discovering what I actually need in life. Surrounded by so many questions , so many paths to choose from can be tiring .  There is a kind of drag that Iam not able to pinpoint.  Always looking forward to week ends , holidays and sleep . Nothing seems interesting in life except for the Sanja conversations :P.  Am I totally lost , I don't know. So there have been ideas and thoughts for posting in the blog, I didn't feel like putting them down. Laziness.  Iam trying very hard to break the shackles , move forward .  At work front as well - procrastination is killing me .  Again trying free myself. Spending all my time reading blogs, sleeping, reading books , sleeping, cooking as if iam a robot , sleeping, - I am hating this .   I seem to be making no headway in term...

Where have I been/ What am I doing

-sadly neglecting the blog. :( -studying :) - having inner struggles  :( - seeing a baby gal grow up to a miss little lady :) - watching a little gals dream come true , seeing the happiness shine in her eyes :) -cooking :) -fighting with low self esteem, :( and still not winning over it. -trying to find a purpose in life  :| -lose weight and get back in shape :( :( -scolding the little one :( - health issues :(( -getting worse in maintaining family ties :(  [ After marriage I am noticing a decline in my interactions with my  paternal/maternal family] - disillusioned :( -understanding what love is when I wake up everyday to a small form sprawled next me and every time she utters "Amma" Inga vaye , paaren (Amma .. come here see this ). :) I see lots of :( than :)  which translates to admonishing myself for not living my life as I want or as I perceive it to be. Hopefully will WILL myself to blog more. I need some outlet . I have so man...